Ok...

... so if this doesn't prove how crazy I am... I don't know what does.

After an emotional couple of days at the household, I wake up this morning with this rush of just uncontrollable tears. WHY you ask? It is hitting me (BIG TIME) that the little boy is going to be in Kindergartent. I'm not ready for it. THERE I said it. I. Am. Not. Ready. For it!!! I just kept crying - like a crazy bitch... like a mad crazy bitch. There he was, sleeping in our bed (he walked to our room early in the morning and climbed up to snuggle next to us) - and oh my heavens, I can't believe he is going to the Big School in two weeks.

What in the world?!?!

And yes, maybe, just maybe.. all of this emotional wig out is anxiety for all of us balled up like some crazy, crazy joke.

I'm excited for him to be going to the Big School... but at the same time, the anxiety attack is coming in full force. You hear the stories...oh the evil, evil stories! Kids are mean. Mean, mean bastards. I know I can't shelter my little one from everything... but somehow, I just don't think I'm ready to expose him either. The husband tells me to rely on the fact that we have prepared him... that the little boy knows what is right from wrong...

But indulge me when I say that how I wish I can keep him with me. Always.

"The kindergarten children are so confident in spirit, infinite in resources, and eager to learn. Everything is still possible." - Robert Fulghum

All I Really Need To Know I Learned In Kindergarten

by Robert Fulghum

- an excerpt from the book, All I Really Need To Know I Learned in Kindergarten

All I really need to know I learned in kindergarten.
ALL I REALLY NEED TO KNOW about how to live and what to do
and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not
at the top of the graduate-school mountain, but there in the
sandpile at Sunday School. These are the things I learned:

Share everything.

Play fair.

Don't hit people.

Put things back where you found them.

Clean up your own mess.

Don't take things that aren't yours.

Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.

Wash your hands before you eat.

Flush.

Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.

Live a balanced life - learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some.

Take a nap every afternoon.

When you go out into the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands, and stick together.

Be aware of wonder.

Remember the little seed in the styrofoam cup:
The roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that.

Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the Styrofoam cup - they all die. So do we.

And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you learned - the biggest
word of all - LOOK.

Everything you need to know is in there somewhere. The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation. Ecology and politics and equality and sane living.

Take any of those items and extrapolate it into sophisticated adult terms and apply it to your
family life or your work or your government or your world and it holds true and clear and firm.
Think what a better world it would be if all - the whole world - had cookies and milk about
three o'clock every afternoon and then lay down with our blankies for a nap. Or if all governments had a basic policy to always put thing back where they found them and to clean up their own mess.

And it is still true, no matter how old you are - when you go out into the world, it is best to hold hands and stick together.